So today was a big day for me. I finally finished my year-long work placement and am moving back home for the summer!
Now to some people, this would be an exciting time… however, for someone with anxiety that is triggered by change, today has been difficult. It’s been a mixed bag of emotions, it’s all very strange… I’m not very good with goodbyes.
The past year has been a roller coaster of heartbreak, trauma and tragedy (I’m forever the drama queen, but it’s true!). It hasn’t all been bad though. I’ve made new friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime!
I’ve survived a year of being fully independent, made some great friends and had some incredible experiences (such as visiting Cardiff’s famous places like the Wales Millennium Centre and Bute Park, as well as sunbathing on Cardiff Bay Barrage and dining out in the cute restaurants! Including having my first ever Wagamama’s… and I loved it! See the picture for proof!). This may not seem very exciting to you but I never do anything, so for me to even leave the house it’s an achievement.
Everyone says that I should be proud of what I have achieved but it’s hard because when I look back I just think of all the things that went wrong and how anxious I was. I suppose in a way I am proud that I didn’t just run back home and live out the rest of my life with my mum (which I’m sure she would have hated!).
Now it’s time to move out, move on and move up! I’m going to start looking at the positives, I get a whole summer off, I turn 21 and I can go back to uni and hopefully make new friends and have great new adventures!
Wish me luck!
p.s. what are your plans for the summer??